we all know the answer to this question
pretty much
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"That’s what people do who love you. They put their arms around you and love you when you are not so lovable."
— Deb Caletti (via beatboxgoesthump)
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i really want to get something really special in the mail and have a fancy dinner
i also want watermelon and new shoes and a night walk
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well…today should be interesting
i’m leaving
it can’t come soon enough
i need a new mix tape for my walk across the city and my walk across the bridge and my walk across brooklyn…and my flight across the country…
can someone give me new songs? it would make me so happy
i bought a ticket
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it’s funny when people try to pretend they are super totally really for sure doing super well totally….
i would rather try to tell you the truth
i would rather say things have been hard… i’m ok saying i feel lonely
i will look you in the eye and say i wish it was different but for now this is where i am
this doesn’t mean i want to talk about it all the time and it doesn’t mean i think it will be this way forever
and i want you to know that saying this..and having it be true is not a scar…or a sign of weakness… it’s just the truth…and it’s embarrassing sometimes…and it hurts a lot…
but i still wake up glad i opened my eyes..i wake up happy it’s sunny…excited to walk around with my headphones on..i still wander the isles of the grocery store counting the different types of mustard and i still touch the tips of plants as i walk by smiling at dogs and trying not to step on snails after it rains… i just hurt a little inside… and for now that’s the truth…
i’ll let you know when it eases up… but until then… i would rather we just look at each other and know that this happens sometimes…to all of us…and although it seems to be going on foreeeever … it will pass and i will be able to say with the clear sound of honesty
i’m doing a lot better…things are pretty cool…
bummer you guys
i hate feeling let down… and i have been finding myself feeling this way a lot
friendships and love sometimes make me feel like i’m falling
i fall so low and fast my ears pop
i want everything to slow down…i want sweetness from the people i hold close…
i notice a pattern i don’t like the texture of…closeness turns to distance turns to meanness turns to apology…and then i am left standing not knowing what to do …
i will say more about this later… i think i need to try to fall asleep now…i think i need to try to dream about people i have never met…i need to dream about swimming
good night Internet
"Never waste your time trying to explain who you are to people who are committed to misunderstanding you."
—
Dream Hampton
i just tried to do this… they kept getting it all wrong…it made me so tired
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i just feel quiet
and small and in need of some grass to lay on and something to get my mind off of the things that are on it
i need to stop my brains noise machine
"I do not feel good
I’ve got the sad sads
all I want to do is
fuck you"
I’ve got the sad sads
all I want to do is
fuck you"
— Charles Bukowski (via paper-snow-a-ghost)
i heard the word picnic and i started to cry
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